subject line: ever since.

So many places

“when i saw that this website was updating again, i felt like crying. i used to check this website every day, from my freshman year of high school. i fell in and out of love through these emails. i said goodbye, i said hello. i welcomed new beginnings, and i tied loose ends. this website helped me a lot throughout my high school years, but it was during college when the emails stopped that i really needed it. and now, i was thinking about what i could write—about what has happened to me since the last time i read an email from this website.

a lot has happened.

but i’m happier now, in a way i didn’t realize i could be. and i don’t know if i realized that until i was going through old emails i wrote that were posted on here because—you can see the difference in my words. and i am thankful for it.”